This has been a hard morning. I just woke up and everything felt off. I haven’t been home in a week, and thankfully I go back today. I’m still a part of the partial hospitalization program. We’ve just started talking about titrating me down to the lower-level IOP treatment. The past couple of sessions withContinue reading “Something about growth and goop”
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Self Love Poem
This poem was an assignment from my therapist, which I felt was worth widely sharing
The Meaning of My Name
There is a much larger post in the works, which in all honesty has been in the works since June, explaining a lot of what has been going on in my life for the past several months. I need to be taking steps towards giving myself more meaning in life. Beyond Riley. I need moreContinue reading “The Meaning of My Name”
Some Sort of Accomplishment
On October 11th I attended, as far as a digital ceremony where all they kept was my name in a list of thousands of others, my college graduation. After half a decade of false starts and struggling with just existing with my brain chemicals and general health. I did it. I have all of myContinue reading “Some Sort of Accomplishment”
Contemplation
I’ve been thinking about this article a lot, since I read it a couple of weeks ago. Letting people know that I am bipolar is terrifying, every single time I must do it. It doesn’t matter the context of the relationship – romantic, sexual, completely platonic… sometimes even just work. And it’s not something IContinue reading “Contemplation”
Disco Ball
This holiday weekend has one of my busiest weekends of the year. Probably the past two years – though in hindsight basically nothing from 2020 should count. On Friday night, I saw Hamilton at the Pantages Theater with my family. And while the show was not the mind blowing experience was the first time IContinue reading “Disco Ball”
The Umpteenth Inappropriate Conversation I’ve had this week
Some people I hold near and dear to my heart have recently had their baby. This child’s mother is in one of the group chats I am apart of and will occasionally bless us with photo’s of her spawn. Who is as great and pretty as a spawn can be and I am absolutely low-keyContinue reading “The Umpteenth Inappropriate Conversation I’ve had this week”
Getting Back At It – Sort of.
There’s a lot I could write about today. I have the Inaguration on, which has given me so many feelings. I also discovered that Luna, the little pug who is a spaz, does not like when I get upset and will try to attack the things she thinks is upsetting me. Which is how IContinue reading “Getting Back At It – Sort of.”
Reflections
I did not do a lot of what I had wanted to. I didn’t go to Japan. I didn’t go to Disneyland once a month, or do the stair walks regularly. I did pay off a good chunk of the ever so oppressive debt I was in…. only to need to then put myself inContinue reading “Reflections”
Tummy Ache of the Heart
The past weekend had been simultaneously one of the best weekends (well, best day) followed by nothing but things that have made my heart sore. Halloween is my favorite holiday. It usually marks the start of what counts as Fall for Los Angeles, and it’s a day where creativity and spooky and everything is justContinue reading “Tummy Ache of the Heart”
Shpunkey 