After finishing this post. And going for a swim. And riding my bike. And dying my hair. And crying more until I feel so drained there isn’t much left in me. I am just done. I called my therapist, who helped get me to a more stable place for now. I might be manic. SheContinue reading “Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash”
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Disorders
I have been diagnosed with many things over the years. Or been told you have this, only to go someplace else and be told absolutely not. Like schizophrenia. I’m not schizophrenic. Or bulimic. I do have bipolar. I do have major depression. I do have general anxiety. I do have PTSD. And I have anorexiaContinue reading “Disorders”
Trigger Warning
Trigger Warning: This post deals pretty graphically and heavily with a rape that occurred a year ago. While it was very therapeutic for me to write – I understand that reading it may not be for others. Click the read more at your own discretion.
One Day
I keep thinking about my one day. One day, I’ll have my own place. I’ll have my own furry pet. My car will be in my name, and I’ll be covering my own insurance. I’ll never have to ask my friends to help me by buying me dinner, or helping with gas because if theyContinue reading “One Day”
Closure
I had dinner tonight with my former fiancee. He had come in from out the east coast because he wanted to talk to me. And. I was hesitant. This is a man who emotionally and mentally abused me our entire relationship. He had me so detached from myself that I secluded myself from everyone inContinue reading “Closure”
A Weekend of Existential Chaos
This post brought to you by the theme of this particular weekend: Drugs, Booze, Being Naked, Afraid, and Alone Together, and Just Accepting Things the Way They Are.
Hit and Run
I got hit by a motorcycle today. I’m okay. I’m angry. Which is nice because hey emotions! But man. This really, really sucks. The motorcycle didn’t stop to see if he had damaged my car. Which he had. He was trying to squeeze between me and the car next to me and misjudged badly. HeContinue reading “Hit and Run”
Magikarp
I had a stupid, silly realization yesterday that lead to a panic attack where I was on the floor struggling to breathe for twenty minutes. It felt like every nerve was on fire and paralyzed. I couldn’t find my inhaler which made it worse. But I did find my manatee. And my space llama. AndContinue reading “Magikarp”
Loved
My birthday was at the start of the month. And I did things with my family. Had a couple really nice dinners and all that. I celebrated with my friends yesterday. We went to one of my favorite museums in Los Angeles – the Museum of Death. It’s filled with every aspect of death –Continue reading “Loved”
Red Flags
It’s been another hard week. And while I’ve spent most of it in this weird depressed head space. I’m also coming out of it clearer than I have been. I had two very large red flags happen this week that has me doing something I should have done a long time ago but figured IContinue reading “Red Flags”
Shpunkey 