This has been a hard morning. I just woke up and everything felt off. I haven’t been home in a week, and thankfully I go back today. I’m still a part of the partial hospitalization program. We’ve just started talking about titrating me down to the lower-level IOP treatment. The past couple of sessions withContinue reading “Something about growth and goop”
Tag Archives: depression
The past few months
At the end of May, I hit a very low point. I’ve been struggling, as I usually do, for a while. But it had gotten a lot worse. I hit a point of being about one bad thing away from a mental breakdown and was having ideation daydreams several times an hour. The tipping pointContinue reading “The past few months”
More Angsty Depression Stuff
Blindsided
The past 60 hours have been tumultuous, at best. For the basic major rundown of what happened… it was as follows: My mother was in a car accident, in which she was rear-ended by a school bus. Things are not going well for my sister. I can’t talk about it publically, but things are notContinue reading “Blindsided”
Looking Forward
I’ve been daydreaming a lot lately. I keep seeing the “one day.” Which is good. It’s a good positive thing for me to focus on. And it’s helped me set goals for myself. I want to get my bachelor’s degree. I’m not going to do the overly frilly and get two like I had beenContinue reading “Looking Forward”
Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash
After finishing this post. And going for a swim. And riding my bike. And dying my hair. And crying more until I feel so drained there isn’t much left in me. I am just done. I called my therapist, who helped get me to a more stable place for now. I might be manic. SheContinue reading “Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash”
One Day
I keep thinking about my one day. One day, I’ll have my own place. I’ll have my own furry pet. My car will be in my name, and I’ll be covering my own insurance. I’ll never have to ask my friends to help me by buying me dinner, or helping with gas because if theyContinue reading “One Day”
Closure
I had dinner tonight with my former fiancee. He had come in from out the east coast because he wanted to talk to me. And. I was hesitant. This is a man who emotionally and mentally abused me our entire relationship. He had me so detached from myself that I secluded myself from everyone inContinue reading “Closure”
A Weekend of Existential Chaos
This post brought to you by the theme of this particular weekend: Drugs, Booze, Being Naked, Afraid, and Alone Together, and Just Accepting Things the Way They Are.
Magikarp
I had a stupid, silly realization yesterday that lead to a panic attack where I was on the floor struggling to breathe for twenty minutes. It felt like every nerve was on fire and paralyzed. I couldn’t find my inhaler which made it worse. But I did find my manatee. And my space llama. AndContinue reading “Magikarp”
Shpunkey 