I told my therapist I would journal more. And I’ve just stared at the screen for hours, not sure what to write. I still feel really depressed and kind of hopeless. I’m trying to counteract that. So… I guess let’s look at the things that are good in my life right now. Things aren’t allContinue reading “Something Hopeful”
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Fired
10 days ago I was fired from my job. Let go is the polite way of putting it, but it all boils down to the same thing. After nearly 5 years, I find myself unemployed again. I’m grieving the loss of this job. I loved the company, and I loved my coworkers. Sure, I didn’tContinue reading “Fired”
Stood Up
I got stood up by my therapist tonight. We usually just do check-ins, making sure I’m not going off in those fun manic ways. But I actually needed to talk to someone tonight. The person I paid to talk to just didn’t show up, and it looks like he canceled all my future appointments. I’mContinue reading “Stood Up”
Something about growth and goop
This has been a hard morning. I just woke up and everything felt off. I haven’t been home in a week, and thankfully I go back today. I’m still a part of the partial hospitalization program. We’ve just started talking about titrating me down to the lower-level IOP treatment. The past couple of sessions withContinue reading “Something about growth and goop”
Self Love Poem
This poem was an assignment from my therapist, which I felt was worth widely sharing
The Meaning of My Name
There is a much larger post in the works, which in all honesty has been in the works since June, explaining a lot of what has been going on in my life for the past several months. I need to be taking steps towards giving myself more meaning in life. Beyond Riley. I need moreContinue reading “The Meaning of My Name”
Some Sort of Accomplishment
On October 11th I attended, as far as a digital ceremony where all they kept was my name in a list of thousands of others, my college graduation. After half a decade of false starts and struggling with just existing with my brain chemicals and general health. I did it. I have all of myContinue reading “Some Sort of Accomplishment”
Contemplation
I’ve been thinking about this article a lot, since I read it a couple of weeks ago. Letting people know that I am bipolar is terrifying, every single time I must do it. It doesn’t matter the context of the relationship – romantic, sexual, completely platonic… sometimes even just work. And it’s not something IContinue reading “Contemplation”
Disco Ball
This holiday weekend has one of my busiest weekends of the year. Probably the past two years – though in hindsight basically nothing from 2020 should count. On Friday night, I saw Hamilton at the Pantages Theater with my family. And while the show was not the mind blowing experience was the first time IContinue reading “Disco Ball”
The Umpteenth Inappropriate Conversation I’ve had this week
Some people I hold near and dear to my heart have recently had their baby. This child’s mother is in one of the group chats I am apart of and will occasionally bless us with photo’s of her spawn. Who is as great and pretty as a spawn can be and I am absolutely low-keyContinue reading “The Umpteenth Inappropriate Conversation I’ve had this week”
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