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Most, if not all, of what had me in such a state last week has been resolved. And this weekend was such a good weekend. My big health thing was a false positive. It was a very stressful period of waiting for those results. And my gods. The relief I felt when I got theContinue reading “:)”

Thankful

Today’s Thanksgiving. And I’m just. I’m sitting in my room, with a grilled cheese sandwich and bowl of tomato bisque listening to show tunes and rain patter outside. We’re having the first big storm since Spring right now. And it’s kind of really lovely. Albeit, cold. And I don’t handle cold all that well. I’veContinue reading “Thankful”

Looking Forward

I’ve been daydreaming a lot lately. I keep seeing the “one day.” Which is good. It’s a good positive thing for me to focus on. And it’s helped me set goals for myself. I want to get my bachelor’s degree. I’m not going to do the overly frilly and get two like I had beenContinue reading “Looking Forward”

Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash

After finishing this post. And going for a swim. And riding my bike. And dying my hair. And crying more until I feel so drained there isn’t much left in me. I am just done. I called my therapist, who helped get me to a more stable place for now. I might be manic. SheContinue reading “Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash”

Disorders

I have been diagnosed with many things over the years. Or been told you have this, only to go someplace else and be told absolutely not. Like schizophrenia. I’m not schizophrenic. Or bulimic. I do have bipolar. I do have major depression. I do have general anxiety. I do have PTSD. And I have anorexiaContinue reading “Disorders”

Trigger Warning

Trigger Warning: This post deals pretty graphically and heavily with a rape that occurred a year ago. While it was very therapeutic for me to write – I understand that reading it may not be for others. Click the read more at your own discretion.

One Day

I keep thinking about my one day. One day, I’ll have my own place. I’ll have my own furry pet. My car will be in my name, and I’ll be covering my own insurance. I’ll never have to ask my friends to help me by buying me dinner, or helping with gas because if theyContinue reading “One Day”

Closure

I had dinner tonight with my former fiancee. He had come in from out the east coast because he wanted to talk to me. And. I was hesitant. This is a man who emotionally and mentally abused me our entire relationship. He had me so detached from myself that I secluded myself from everyone inContinue reading “Closure”

A Weekend of Existential Chaos

This post brought to you by the theme of this particular weekend: Drugs, Booze, Being Naked, Afraid, and Alone Together, and Just Accepting Things the Way They Are.

Hit and Run

I got hit by a motorcycle today. I’m okay. I’m angry. Which is nice because hey emotions! But man. This really, really sucks. The motorcycle didn’t stop to see if he had damaged my car. Which he had. He was trying to squeeze between me and the car next to me and misjudged badly. HeContinue reading “Hit and Run”