10 days ago I was fired from my job. Let go is the polite way of putting it, but it all boils down to the same thing. After nearly 5 years, I find myself unemployed again. I’m grieving the loss of this job. I loved the company, and I loved my coworkers. Sure, I didn’tContinue reading “Fired”
Tag Archives: mental health
Stood Up
I got stood up by my therapist tonight. We usually just do check-ins, making sure I’m not going off in those fun manic ways. But I actually needed to talk to someone tonight. The person I paid to talk to just didn’t show up, and it looks like he canceled all my future appointments. I’mContinue reading “Stood Up”
Something about growth and goop
This has been a hard morning. I just woke up and everything felt off. I haven’t been home in a week, and thankfully I go back today. I’m still a part of the partial hospitalization program. We’ve just started talking about titrating me down to the lower-level IOP treatment. The past couple of sessions withContinue reading “Something about growth and goop”
Self Love Poem
This poem was an assignment from my therapist, which I felt was worth widely sharing
The past few months
At the end of May, I hit a very low point. I’ve been struggling, as I usually do, for a while. But it had gotten a lot worse. I hit a point of being about one bad thing away from a mental breakdown and was having ideation daydreams several times an hour. The tipping pointContinue reading “The past few months”
Contemplation
I’ve been thinking about this article a lot, since I read it a couple of weeks ago. Letting people know that I am bipolar is terrifying, every single time I must do it. It doesn’t matter the context of the relationship – romantic, sexual, completely platonic… sometimes even just work. And it’s not something IContinue reading “Contemplation”
Tummy Ache of the Heart
The past weekend had been simultaneously one of the best weekends (well, best day) followed by nothing but things that have made my heart sore. Halloween is my favorite holiday. It usually marks the start of what counts as Fall for Los Angeles, and it’s a day where creativity and spooky and everything is justContinue reading “Tummy Ache of the Heart”
Mental Health Talking About Day
This entry is going to be a little different. As I’ve mentioned previously, either on stream or on here (it could have been my WordPress – which I am in the process of merging with this website. But I don’t really know what I’m doing, so its a work in progress), I’m currently in schoolContinue reading “Mental Health Talking About Day”
Words and stuff
I have been writing this blog entry for several weeks. In pieces. Because dear lords did life just get SUPER busy really freaking all of a sudden. And then I go back and I read what I wrote and I erase it because it’s no longer relevant. My schedule is kind of all over theContinue reading “Words and stuff”
Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash
After finishing this post. And going for a swim. And riding my bike. And dying my hair. And crying more until I feel so drained there isn’t much left in me. I am just done. I called my therapist, who helped get me to a more stable place for now. I might be manic. SheContinue reading “Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash”
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