I told my therapist I would journal more. And I’ve just stared at the screen for hours, not sure what to write. I still feel really depressed and kind of hopeless. I’m trying to counteract that. So… I guess let’s look at the things that are good in my life right now. Things aren’t allContinue reading “Something Hopeful”
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Some Sort of Accomplishment
On October 11th I attended, as far as a digital ceremony where all they kept was my name in a list of thousands of others, my college graduation. After half a decade of false starts and struggling with just existing with my brain chemicals and general health. I did it. I have all of myContinue reading “Some Sort of Accomplishment”
Contemplation
I’ve been thinking about this article a lot, since I read it a couple of weeks ago. Letting people know that I am bipolar is terrifying, every single time I must do it. It doesn’t matter the context of the relationship – romantic, sexual, completely platonic… sometimes even just work. And it’s not something IContinue reading “Contemplation”
Disco Ball
This holiday weekend has one of my busiest weekends of the year. Probably the past two years – though in hindsight basically nothing from 2020 should count. On Friday night, I saw Hamilton at the Pantages Theater with my family. And while the show was not the mind blowing experience was the first time IContinue reading “Disco Ball”
Giant Squidball of Rage
Okay. So. No secret I’ve been upset about my break up with C, right? That’s pretty clear. This will hopefully be the last entry regarding him. Because I need to work out this rage. And then make myself eat dinner and play a video game, and focus on the people in my life who actuallyContinue reading “Giant Squidball of Rage”
Daily Gratitude
A couple of entries ago, I said something about wanting to think of things I was grateful for in a day. I decided to keep that log here, because well. I won’t lose this like I have my journals or anywhere else. So. Feh. Here’s a thing. Daily Gratitude #1 – March 1, 2020 DragonContinue reading “Daily Gratitude”
Blindsided
The past 60 hours have been tumultuous, at best. For the basic major rundown of what happened… it was as follows: My mother was in a car accident, in which she was rear-ended by a school bus. Things are not going well for my sister. I can’t talk about it publically, but things are notContinue reading “Blindsided”
:)
Most, if not all, of what had me in such a state last week has been resolved. And this weekend was such a good weekend. My big health thing was a false positive. It was a very stressful period of waiting for those results. And my gods. The relief I felt when I got theContinue reading “:)”
Looking Forward
I’ve been daydreaming a lot lately. I keep seeing the “one day.” Which is good. It’s a good positive thing for me to focus on. And it’s helped me set goals for myself. I want to get my bachelor’s degree. I’m not going to do the overly frilly and get two like I had beenContinue reading “Looking Forward”
Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash
After finishing this post. And going for a swim. And riding my bike. And dying my hair. And crying more until I feel so drained there isn’t much left in me. I am just done. I called my therapist, who helped get me to a more stable place for now. I might be manic. SheContinue reading “Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash”
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