My grandmother, Carol Ann Duefrene, passed away on December 2, 2017, at 12:40 in the morning. I am not okay. I’m pretty good at pretending to be okay, but I can’t with this. I am going through the motions that you are supposed to do for living life and moving on. I have continued toContinue reading “Memories and Loss”
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A Do/Do Not list of going to Confession
My grandmother, Laller, passed away on December 2. It’s been hard. There’s a bigger entry in the works of me processing, and my favorite story with her in her prime. But this is a thing I am dealing with. Poorly. One of her requests was a full Mass service. I grew up Catholic. I’ve sinceContinue reading “A Do/Do Not list of going to Confession”
Not Enough
I’m not Mexican enough. I don’t speak Spanish. I don’t eat spicy foods because I can’t tolerate spice that well. My skin is too pale. I have very little accent to my voice. I don’t dance. I don’t sing. I have no rhythm. I have too much love for Pumpkin Spice. And Trader Joe’s BaasContinue reading “Not Enough”
Word Vomit
I’ve spent the past week cat sitting at one of my friend’s place. The cats are adorable, and one lets me rub its belly. And the other is mistrustful of me, doesn’t let me touch her, and tries, in general, to not be too close to me. I feel like the second cat. Last weekContinue reading “Word Vomit”
The Annual Bash
For the past seven years, there has been the Bash. The Bash takes place over President’s Day weekend, Saturday through Monday. There is a theme set. Food is decided. A movie is picked. And the party commences. The first Bash I remember was the Ulitmate Zelda Bash. We played and beat through as many ofContinue reading “The Annual Bash”
February Blues
When I started writing this entry, I was sitting at Tortilla Joe’s restaurant in the Downtown Disney District, taking myself on a much needed me date. This year is going by so fast. It’s kind of unbelievable. A lot has happened. To start, I have a temporary job. I am a data entry technician workingContinue reading “February Blues”
An update, of sorts
I got hit by five birds earlier today. At least, my car did. It’s okay. I’m okay. Most of the birds are okay (as in they flew away – one, however, didn’t make it). But I’ll be damned if I don’t live an interesting life. It’s something my friends have commented on several times. AContinue reading “An update, of sorts”
Looking Forward and Back
I’ve had about 4 things in my drafts now for the past couple months. I don’t know why I never just posted them, but I didn’t and now their gone because if I was going to actually do something with those words I would have already. It’s the last day of 2016. Thank the godsContinue reading “Looking Forward and Back”
Anxiety, Role Playing and me
My anxiety isn’t something that I hide. For one, I just can’t. For another, when I try it gets a lot worse. A few years ago I couldn’t manage it without the help of a lot of anti-anxiety pills and straight out avoiding leaving my apartment often. Which… in turn didn’t help anything because, on topContinue reading “Anxiety, Role Playing and me”
Scare Night!
Last night I made my annual trip to one of the local theme parks Halloween Events. After learning from last year that I really just can’t handle how ineffective handicapped people are treated at another park. I opted to go to the one where I have never been mistreated to a point of no return.Continue reading “Scare Night!”
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