I’ve fallen down a strange rabbit hole. It’s happened before, but usually, it will pass after a day. I’ve been rather obsessively reading about murderers, kidnappings, and unsolved crimes. I’ve actually learned about new ones that really. They aren’t new. But in my own little bubble, I had not heard of them before. The unsolvedContinue reading “Rabbit Holes”
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Processing. Please wait.
It feels like for months now, every time I sit down to try to write, it’s just about how depressed I am. I am fighting and struggling, every day with these feeling of inadequacies that multiply every time I go to work. Every time I wake up. Every time I let a friend down. IContinue reading “Processing. Please wait.”
Going on to 2018, with a brief look back on 2017
When this uploads, it’ll be January 1st. I spent a good portion of time examining the different tools and aspects of WordPress. Something I should have done years ago but never actually bothered because I am actually the worst. This past year has been a rollercoaster. I did so much. I gained so much. AndContinue reading “Going on to 2018, with a brief look back on 2017”
Memories and Loss
My grandmother, Carol Ann Duefrene, passed away on December 2, 2017, at 12:40 in the morning. I am not okay. I’m pretty good at pretending to be okay, but I can’t with this. I am going through the motions that you are supposed to do for living life and moving on. I have continued toContinue reading “Memories and Loss”
A Do/Do Not list of going to Confession
My grandmother, Laller, passed away on December 2. It’s been hard. There’s a bigger entry in the works of me processing, and my favorite story with her in her prime. But this is a thing I am dealing with. Poorly. One of her requests was a full Mass service. I grew up Catholic. I’ve sinceContinue reading “A Do/Do Not list of going to Confession”
Not Enough
I’m not Mexican enough. I don’t speak Spanish. I don’t eat spicy foods because I can’t tolerate spice that well. My skin is too pale. I have very little accent to my voice. I don’t dance. I don’t sing. I have no rhythm. I have too much love for Pumpkin Spice. And Trader Joe’s BaasContinue reading “Not Enough”
Word Vomit
I’ve spent the past week cat sitting at one of my friend’s place. The cats are adorable, and one lets me rub its belly. And the other is mistrustful of me, doesn’t let me touch her, and tries, in general, to not be too close to me. I feel like the second cat. Last weekContinue reading “Word Vomit”
An update, of sorts
I got hit by five birds earlier today. At least, my car did. It’s okay. I’m okay. Most of the birds are okay (as in they flew away – one, however, didn’t make it). But I’ll be damned if I don’t live an interesting life. It’s something my friends have commented on several times. AContinue reading “An update, of sorts”
Whelp…
At the beginning of the year, I made out a list of goals I intended on completing. They were simple, for the most part. And I did okay on them, for the first time really ever. They were as follows: Take a selfie every day, and post it on instagram with the hashtag #selfieoftheday. ThisContinue reading “Whelp…”
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