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Daily Gratitude #3
The new season of Brooklyn 99 PIMENTO Two of my best friends. The number of people who voted, even if I don’t like the turn out so far.
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Most, if not all, of what had me in such a state last week has been resolved. And this weekend was such a good weekend. My big health thing was a false positive. It was a very stressful period of waiting for those results. And my gods. The relief I felt when I got theContinue reading “:)”
Decompression
I wanted to stop only coming here when I was upset or crying or in crisis. And I’ve thought about things I could write. But I’ve also just. I haven’t had a lot of energy all year. I’ve been low on spoons, or spell slots, or whatever you want to call it. They aren’t refillingContinue reading “Decompression”
New Year. New Goals. Yada yada.
It’s the first of the year. And as always, I’m sitting back in reflection of the absolute clusterfuck 2019 was. It was a hot mess of a year, for a lot of people. But it was also very illuminating. And I’m satisfied with how much I accomplished last year. I’m satisfied, in general. Even thoughContinue reading “New Year. New Goals. Yada yada.”
Thankful
Today’s Thanksgiving. And I’m just. I’m sitting in my room, with a grilled cheese sandwich and bowl of tomato bisque listening to show tunes and rain patter outside. We’re having the first big storm since Spring right now. And it’s kind of really lovely. Albeit, cold. And I don’t handle cold all that well. I’veContinue reading “Thankful”
Jim
My grandfather passed away at the beginning of the month. We held the funeral services this past Monday. His body is being cremated some time today. Then my dad is flying to Pennsylvania to have grandfather’s ashes interred at one of the veteran cemetery there. I didn’t really know my grandfather growing up. I resentedContinue reading “Jim”
Looking Forward
I’ve been daydreaming a lot lately. I keep seeing the “one day.” Which is good. It’s a good positive thing for me to focus on. And it’s helped me set goals for myself. I want to get my bachelor’s degree. I’m not going to do the overly frilly and get two like I had beenContinue reading “Looking Forward”
Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash
After finishing this post. And going for a swim. And riding my bike. And dying my hair. And crying more until I feel so drained there isn’t much left in me. I am just done. I called my therapist, who helped get me to a more stable place for now. I might be manic. SheContinue reading “Anxiety Bad Brain Finger Smash”
Disorders
I have been diagnosed with many things over the years. Or been told you have this, only to go someplace else and be told absolutely not. Like schizophrenia. I’m not schizophrenic. Or bulimic. I do have bipolar. I do have major depression. I do have general anxiety. I do have PTSD. And I have anorexiaContinue reading “Disorders”
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