life experiences – Page 2

Looking Forward

I’ve been daydreaming a lot lately. I keep seeing the “one day.” Which is good. It’s a good positive thing for me to focus on. And it’s helped me set goals for myself. I want to get my bachelor’s degree. I’m not going to do the overly frilly and get two like I had beenContinue reading “Looking Forward”

One Day

I keep thinking about my one day. One day, I’ll have my own place. I’ll have my own furry pet. My car will be in my name, and I’ll be covering my own insurance. I’ll never have to ask my friends to help me by buying me dinner, or helping with gas because if theyContinue reading “One Day”

Closure

I had dinner tonight with my former fiancee. He had come in from out the east coast because he wanted to talk to me. And. I was hesitant. This is a man who emotionally and mentally abused me our entire relationship. He had me so detached from myself that I secluded myself from everyone inContinue reading “Closure”

A Weekend of Existential Chaos

This post brought to you by the theme of this particular weekend: Drugs, Booze, Being Naked, Afraid, and Alone Together, and Just Accepting Things the Way They Are.

Hit and Run

I got hit by a motorcycle today. I’m okay. I’m angry. Which is nice because hey emotions! But man. This really, really sucks. The motorcycle didn’t stop to see if he had damaged my car. Which he had. He was trying to squeeze between me and the car next to me and misjudged badly. HeContinue reading “Hit and Run”

Loved

My birthday was at the start of the month. And I did things with my family. Had a couple really nice dinners and all that. I celebrated with my friends yesterday. We went to one of my favorite museums in Los Angeles – the Museum of Death. It’s filled with every aspect of death –Continue reading “Loved”

Red Flags

It’s been another hard week. And while I’ve spent most of it in this weird depressed head space. I’m also coming out of it clearer than I have been. I had two very large red flags happen this week that has me doing something I should have done a long time ago but figured IContinue reading “Red Flags”

Something Positive

I am in a good mood. I’m tired and exhausted and go nowhere near enough rest or sleep last night. But I think I am happy. I started my new position this week. And it’s fantastic. I am never bored and there is always something for me to do. Even though some of what I’veContinue reading “Something Positive”

Ocean Therapy

So. In looking back at my previous entries. And also the apps I used to help monitor my depression and anxiety. It is very, very clear that I have been doing very poorly for the past month. Likely longer. Truthfully, I’m still not okay. Given that my last entry was yesterday. And I was distraughtContinue reading “Ocean Therapy”

News and stuff.

I am sitting in an empty condo with a cat, who is currently grumpy with me because I apparently do not know how to give it proper pets. I just had a really, really great day. I woke up next to someone who makes me smile and happy. I got a free upgrade on aContinue reading “News and stuff.”