Okay. So. No secret I’ve been upset about my break up with C, right? That’s pretty clear. This will hopefully be the last entry regarding him. Because I need to work out this rage. And then make myself eat dinner and play a video game, and focus on the people in my life who actuallyContinue reading “Giant Squidball of Rage”
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Daily Gratitude #3
The new season of Brooklyn 99 PIMENTO Two of my best friends. The number of people who voted, even if I don’t like the turn out so far.
Daily Gratitude #2
My psychiatrist gave me a prescription for Trileptal and Xanax. My tiny dinosaur plush. Fuzzy socks. I talked to C today for a little while. It was nice.
Daily Gratitude
A couple of entries ago, I said something about wanting to think of things I was grateful for in a day. I decided to keep that log here, because well. I won’t lose this like I have my journals or anywhere else. So. Feh. Here’s a thing. Daily Gratitude #1 – March 1, 2020 DragonContinue reading “Daily Gratitude”
More Angsty Depression Stuff
Blindsided
The past 60 hours have been tumultuous, at best. For the basic major rundown of what happened… it was as follows: My mother was in a car accident, in which she was rear-ended by a school bus. Things are not going well for my sister. I can’t talk about it publically, but things are notContinue reading “Blindsided”
:)
Most, if not all, of what had me in such a state last week has been resolved. And this weekend was such a good weekend. My big health thing was a false positive. It was a very stressful period of waiting for those results. And my gods. The relief I felt when I got theContinue reading “:)”
Decompression
I wanted to stop only coming here when I was upset or crying or in crisis. And I’ve thought about things I could write. But I’ve also just. I haven’t had a lot of energy all year. I’ve been low on spoons, or spell slots, or whatever you want to call it. They aren’t refillingContinue reading “Decompression”
New Year. New Goals. Yada yada.
It’s the first of the year. And as always, I’m sitting back in reflection of the absolute clusterfuck 2019 was. It was a hot mess of a year, for a lot of people. But it was also very illuminating. And I’m satisfied with how much I accomplished last year. I’m satisfied, in general. Even thoughContinue reading “New Year. New Goals. Yada yada.”
Thankful
Today’s Thanksgiving. And I’m just. I’m sitting in my room, with a grilled cheese sandwich and bowl of tomato bisque listening to show tunes and rain patter outside. We’re having the first big storm since Spring right now. And it’s kind of really lovely. Albeit, cold. And I don’t handle cold all that well. I’veContinue reading “Thankful”
Shpunkey 