Well. I am awful at just sitting down and writing. This is evident in the years of sporadic entries here. I want to be more consistent with my writing. It’s something that, despite appearances, is important to me. I am going to try to do better. I have the time now. I was discharged fromContinue reading “Out”
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Something about growth and goop
This has been a hard morning. I just woke up and everything felt off. I haven’t been home in a week, and thankfully I go back today. I’m still a part of the partial hospitalization program. We’ve just started talking about titrating me down to the lower-level IOP treatment. The past couple of sessions withContinue reading “Something about growth and goop”
Self Love Poem
This poem was an assignment from my therapist, which I felt was worth widely sharing
The past few months
At the end of May, I hit a very low point. I’ve been struggling, as I usually do, for a while. But it had gotten a lot worse. I hit a point of being about one bad thing away from a mental breakdown and was having ideation daydreams several times an hour. The tipping pointContinue reading “The past few months”
A Safe Calm Space
Prompt: If you could choose any place or scenario (real or imaginary) to place yourself in right now for your comfort and relaxation, where would it be? Describe it in as much detail as possible. The safe place where I think I would be the most calm right now is the Rose Court Garden atContinue reading “A Safe Calm Space”
The Meaning of My Name
There is a much larger post in the works, which in all honesty has been in the works since June, explaining a lot of what has been going on in my life for the past several months. I need to be taking steps towards giving myself more meaning in life. Beyond Riley. I need moreContinue reading “The Meaning of My Name”
New year, same me
As I am sitting here writing this, I’m sick and doing my best to just get things done and taken care of. I’m in the middle of moving, so there are boxes and bags of garbage everywhere. I have my puppy, Riley, chewing on a bone gifted to her after one of the fancier dinnersContinue reading “New year, same me”
Ha
I blinked and basically a whole year passed. Whelp. Why is there a question above my writing box? It’s asking if I am a morning person or a night person. The answer is I am a when did I fall asleep and how much sleep did I get person.
Where did the time go????
This past December was probably the roughest December I have ever had the displeasure of going through. It started with one of the people I cared so much for and trusted enormously passing away incredibly suddenly. Then, three more friends were lost to COVID, one more lost to suicide, and ended with another final friendshipContinue reading “Where did the time go????”
Some Sort of Accomplishment
On October 11th I attended, as far as a digital ceremony where all they kept was my name in a list of thousands of others, my college graduation. After half a decade of false starts and struggling with just existing with my brain chemicals and general health. I did it. I have all of myContinue reading “Some Sort of Accomplishment”
Shpunkey 