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Something Hopeful

I told my therapist I would journal more. And I’ve just stared at the screen for hours, not sure what to write. I still feel really depressed and kind of hopeless. I’m trying to counteract that. So… I guess let’s look at the things that are good in my life right now. Things aren’t allContinue reading “Something Hopeful”

Routine

I’ve been incredibly sick for the past week. It hasn’t stopped me from searching for a new job, or taking interviews. Which maybe it should have, since I didn’t get those jobs and I know I was not at my best. I’ve fallen into a routine. It’s not a lot. But its all I’ve beenContinue reading “Routine”

Fired

10 days ago I was fired from my job. Let go is the polite way of putting it, but it all boils down to the same thing. After nearly 5 years, I find myself unemployed again. I’m grieving the loss of this job. I loved the company, and I loved my coworkers. Sure, I didn’tContinue reading “Fired”

Aging

I just turned 37. Yesterday, in fact. And I feel like a loser. I have very few prospects, if any. I live with my parents and I’m unable to move out. I’m facing possibly being homeless as a result because they may need to move. I’m in debt. I’m working on getting out of debt,Continue reading “Aging”

Help Riley with Ear Infection Treatment

Hi, I need some help taking care of my dog. She’s had 5 ear infections, and we’re trying to figure out why. If you could share and/or donate, that would be greatly appreciated. https://gofund.me/e8b62461

Thought Bubbles

The year finally feels like it’s starting. I’ve been housesitting since December 23rd. Last night was the first night I spent in my own bed in a month. I missed my bed. I didn’t miss Izzie and Luna joining me in bed in the middle of the night as much, but I did miss them.Continue reading “Thought Bubbles”

Merry Christmas

I hope everyone reading this had a nice Christmas spent the way they wanted to spend it.

Stood Up

I got stood up by my therapist tonight. We usually just do check-ins, making sure I’m not going off in those fun manic ways. But I actually needed to talk to someone tonight. The person I paid to talk to just didn’t show up, and it looks like he canceled all my future appointments. I’mContinue reading “Stood Up”

Spooky Ookyness

The spooky month has just started. I’ve already done the two major spooky events I am this year – Halloween Horror Nights at Universal Studios Hollywood, and Dark Harbor at the Queen Mary. One, I do every year, and the other, I may never go back and do again. The Dark Harbor event was justContinue reading “Spooky Ookyness”

Travel Bug

I have an interview for Global Entry tonight, which I am both nervous and excited for. I’m anxious that somehow I will mess up and be deemed a risk and fail the interview. And I’m nervous because of why I’m excited. This is the first step that I’m taking to ease of world travel. IContinue reading “Travel Bug”