The past weekend had been simultaneously one of the best weekends (well, best day) followed by nothing but things that have made my heart sore. Halloween is my favorite holiday. It usually marks the start of what counts as Fall for Los Angeles, and it’s a day where creativity and spooky and everything is justContinue reading “Tummy Ache of the Heart”
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Mental Health Talking About Day
This entry is going to be a little different. As I’ve mentioned previously, either on stream or on here (it could have been my WordPress – which I am in the process of merging with this website. But I don’t really know what I’m doing, so its a work in progress), I’m currently in schoolContinue reading “Mental Health Talking About Day”
It has been a day
I’m sitting on my lunch break from work, fresh out of a bubble bath with a galaxy bath bomb I got from the Observatory trip I made back in January or February. I would check the calendar, but honestly. When I got it isn’t all that important. But it was nice, and it was relaxing,Continue reading “It has been a day”
Words and stuff
I have been writing this blog entry for several weeks. In pieces. Because dear lords did life just get SUPER busy really freaking all of a sudden. And then I go back and I read what I wrote and I erase it because it’s no longer relevant. My schedule is kind of all over theContinue reading “Words and stuff”
I have Immediate Concerns
I am prone to chronic migraines. Sometimes they are severe and life has no meaning other than pain and nausea. Sometimes it’s just this vague irritation where it’s still pain and nausea but it’s not an intense pain and nausea as the severe ones. Which. Makes sense. Anyways. I suspected that my cheap pillows hadContinue reading “I have Immediate Concerns”
It’s way too early to be this awake
I’m not sure why I woke up at 4 in the morning. But here we are. It’s a busy week for me. Starting on the loss of my beloved rescue fish. But I have several interviews to look forward tonight (seriously, one at 5 p.m., one at 6 p.m. and a final one at 7Continue reading “It’s way too early to be this awake”
Positives
We’ve been in this vague weird sort of lockdown since March. Things are starting to open up now, but it’s also way to soon for this. I’ve started entry after entry and been at a loss of what to say. So I’d give up after a few sentences. I keep focusing on the things thatContinue reading “Positives”
Secondary
I feel more like myself than I have in over a year. I’m not overly anxious. I’m not overly depressed. Everything that I am feeling and experiencing right now feels appropriate for the situation the world is currently going through. I feel normal. Or as close to my baseline normal that can be. There areContinue reading “Secondary”
pancakes are worse than waffles
Today I relearned why pancakes are terrible and waffles are superior. Other than you know. I always know that waffles are just better. But they are also harder to mess up on when cooking. I made the world’s worst pancake this morning. I cooked it for at least 20 minutes. It was still not cooked allContinue reading “pancakes are worse than waffles”
Enough
I haven’t been doing my best. It’s been a lot more of a struggle to exist right now, which is concerning. But I still feel things. I feel more myself than I have been. Just a tired me. A very tired me. A stressed me. A scared me. I’m working on finding myself in theContinue reading “Enough”
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