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It has been a day

I’m sitting on my lunch break from work, fresh out of a bubble bath with a galaxy bath bomb I got from the Observatory trip I made back in January or February. I would check the calendar, but honestly. When I got it isn’t all that important. But it was nice, and it was relaxing,Continue reading “It has been a day”

Words and stuff

I have been writing this blog entry for several weeks. In pieces. Because dear lords did life just get SUPER busy really freaking all of a sudden. And then I go back and I read what I wrote and I erase it because it’s no longer relevant. My schedule is kind of all over theContinue reading “Words and stuff”

I have Immediate Concerns

I am prone to chronic migraines. Sometimes they are severe and life has no meaning other than pain and nausea. Sometimes it’s just this vague irritation where it’s still pain and nausea but it’s not an intense pain and nausea as the severe ones. Which. Makes sense. Anyways. I suspected that my cheap pillows hadContinue reading “I have Immediate Concerns”

It’s way too early to be this awake

I’m not sure why I woke up at 4 in the morning. But here we are. It’s a busy week for me. Starting on the loss of my beloved rescue fish. But I have several interviews to look forward tonight (seriously, one at 5 p.m., one at 6 p.m. and a final one at 7Continue reading “It’s way too early to be this awake”

Positives

We’ve been in this vague weird sort of lockdown since March. Things are starting to open up now, but it’s also way to soon for this. I’ve started entry after entry and been at a loss of what to say. So I’d give up after a few sentences. I keep focusing on the things thatContinue reading “Positives”

Secondary

I feel more like myself than I have in over a year. I’m not overly anxious. I’m not overly depressed. Everything that I am feeling and experiencing right now feels appropriate for the situation the world is currently going through. I feel normal. Or as close to my baseline normal that can be. There areContinue reading “Secondary”

pancakes are worse than waffles

Today I relearned why pancakes are terrible and waffles are superior. Other than you know. I always know that waffles are just better. But they are also harder to mess up on when cooking. I made the world’s worst pancake this morning. I cooked it for at least 20 minutes. It was still not cooked allContinue reading “pancakes are worse than waffles”

Enough

I haven’t been doing my best. It’s been a lot more of a struggle to exist right now, which is concerning. But I still feel things. I feel more myself than I have been. Just a tired me. A very tired me. A stressed me. A scared me. I’m working on finding myself in theContinue reading “Enough”

How to Accidentally Terrify Someone in 9 steps

1. Go to work. 2. Work in a dust filled closet. There is years worth of dust in said closet. 3. Don’t wear one of the few masks you have left, because you need them for the outside world and you are running out. Dust never killed anyone. 4. Immediately go into a coughing andContinue reading “How to Accidentally Terrify Someone in 9 steps”

Extroverted Introvert

So. The world is on fire and also quarantined. I’m kind of wondering if we’re on the verge of an actual apocalypse, but that also just does not help anything. But. I have a lot to worry about with the effects of the Corona Virus. How it’s affected me, and the people I love, andContinue reading “Extroverted Introvert”