So I suck at writing more. This isn’t new. I’d say say I’m sorry, but the past several months have been very uneventful, and there are only so many ways I can say the same thing over and over again. I would get a job interview, attend it, and feel positive about how I did, only to get ghosted or rejected. Over and over and over again. To say I’ve been growing increasingly dejected is putting things mildly.
I’ve run out of unemployment benefits, which is something I was not aware could happen, and burned through my savings trying to stay afloat. Sitting pretty on zero income and trying not to let the stress of it eat me alive is difficult, but I’m managing. I’ve been lucky in that I’ve been able to get some support from family and friends. But I’m trying not to lean on them too heavily.
I got my first traffic ticket, which is $500 to pay off. It was a stupid, careless mistake that is more costly than I feel it should be. But what do I know? I tried to sell my plasma, but because of one of the medications I’m on, I can’t.
Things have been hard. But there have been positives too.
I started taking Riley to the dog park, where she’s been wildly popular, especially when the other two pugs come along with her. She even plays with other dogs half the time. Though she mostly seems to want to stay by my side. She’s also started curling up under the covers with me at least once a week. Which just makes me feel so safe and secure at night, even though I am absolutely no safer than the nights she is curled up at my feet.
I still have the best friends a person can ask for. I am so beyond grateful for my friend group and my best friends. They are my rocks in life.
I started dating a long-time friend in October. It’s been a difficult transition as we navigate the changes to our relationship and the expectations each of us has for one another.
I started running my Dungeons and Dragons game at the start of the year. It’s been one of the most challenging and rewarding aspects of the year.
2025 has been a difficult year, overall. I am definitely ending it in a much worse place than I was at the start overall. But I’m hopeful for 2026. I have a job interview next week, and one of these has to land me a position. I have support. I’m not in all of this alone.
So here’s to the new year. May it bring more luck and joy than the last.
Shpunkey 