I told my therapist I would journal more. And I’ve just stared at the screen for hours, not sure what to write. I still feel really depressed and kind of hopeless. I’m trying to counteract that. So… I guess let’s look at the things that are good in my life right now.
- I’ve been getting a lot of interviews. No offers so far, but I have two interviews lined up this week, and a recruiter with another possibility lined up.
- My computer works properly again. It hasn’t been able to play video games for months, and it randomly started working again last week.
- I was approved to be a notary. I need to go file my bond and get my seal still, but I’m a notary now.
- I have the best friends and support system a person could have.
- I have one friend in particular who is constantly battling my negative thoughts and depression spirals, and I am so grateful to have him in my life.
- I have Riley, who’s an idiot, but she’s my little idiot.
- I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep on every night. Even if that bed is sometimes over-taken by pugs who love me and feel safe enough to sleep in my bed.
- I have my Disneyland Magic Key, and go at least once a month, and that is a balm I cannot begin to fully describe.
Things aren’t all bad all the time. It’s something I forget a lot. But maybe if I remember this little list, and add to it as time goes by. It’ll stick. I’d like to remember that there is always a little hope and a little joy in each passing day.
Shpunkey 