:)

Most, if not all, of what had me in such a state last week has been resolved. And this weekend was such a good weekend.

My big health thing was a false positive. It was a very stressful period of waiting for those results. And my gods. The relief I felt when I got the news was palpable. It also started a discussion with my parents about the state of my health, both physical and mental. It’s been rough, the past year. It’s been really, really rough. And after some negotiating, and a lot of hugging and even more crying, an agreement was made in that they’ll cover the cost of my insurance, and I’ll do my dad’s laundry once a week.  Which is more than fair and amazing. It also means I can get my medication back. I’ve been okay with the meds, but I can feel spiraling happening more. I can feel more extreme responses to thing and like I’m starting to be less in control. And the bad whispering is starting up again. Nightmares that wake me up several times in a night. I’ll be able to actually get back to just being me again.

I’ve also managed to get to a good point with all the people I’m dating. I feel more secure in the relationships than I think I ever have. Which is nice. All of the upset has gotten me to start reading different books on managing poly relationships and jealousy, so I have tools to use if there is another huge upset. I need to find a way to have better time management. I feel like I’m not offering enough time to all of them, which could lead one of them to feel neglected. Which isn’t good. But… I’m really happy knowing where I stand in the relationship, and what expectations are.

Also good news. I’ve got a ticket to Japan in October of this year. I’m really excited because that was the trip that seemed the most ambitious to me. But the ticket has been purchased. We’re looking at things to do and which region we should visit in addition to Tokyo. And silly arguments over how many theme parks we’re going to visit has started.

Things are really turned around in the last week, in such a bright positive way. All of that, and I got two of the credit cards I wanted to be paid off paid, and I’m not feeling entirely hopeless about searching for a new job, and I did my first stair walk this year, and just. Things feel good. They feel stable.

I feel happy.